I have learned over the past few years that no matter what is going on in my life, God is always waiting on the other side. When I am worried and try to fix things myself I end up in a total tailspin. What I came up with earlier this year when faced with some tough stressers in my life some might call denial. Call it what you want...I basically just checked out. Checked out of social networking, checked out of being involved with friends, checked out of everything but breathing in and breathing out. Doing whatever I could to function as a parent and work. Trying to be strong enough in our marriage for the both of us. I basically got sick of being sick and tired from all of the worry. What I did not do what stop serving the Lord. And on the other side of things...he was there with a big smile. It taught me so many lessons. That I can surely and faithfully lay my burdens down. I refuse to worry. It wastes my valuable time. Does that mean I am not concerned or fearful in a tight situation? No...I just have to pray harder. But I suppose I can refer to it in a new terminology....denial by faith. Because of my faith I will deny myself the turmoil that is associated with worry. God always has me in His arms and at my darkest moments he is the only thing that can give me the peace I need. He speaks to me...when I am willing to hear Him. This is just one of the ways I know..
Several weeks ago I was at one of my lowest points of the journey at Shepherd Center. It was the first time I had been able to physically attend church in weeks because of being on call for work and being in Atlanta with Tim. It was for the Christmas service at NewSpring. Before I even entered the building I was met with hugs and love from so many, however our youth pastor, Brad, embraced me and told me as he kept up with my email updates and blog posts God really layed Ephesians 3 on his heart for me. It was so sweet...and I thought to myself, "I need to read that when I get home." After the service I had several people offer to pray with me. As they did, from two seperate people the words "Ephesians 3" left their mouths. They never knew, of course, that it had already been spoken to me once that evening. Of course as soon as I got home I dove right in. It was amazing. It filled me with such peace to read of the mystery that surrounds a God who is capable of things beyond our wildest imagination.
I arrived in Atlanta later that week. I read the scripture over and over to my husband strung out on so much medication and dozing from exhaustion. I read it from three different translations. I filled him with it. He paid me no attention. The next morning with a little more life in him, he asked that I read it again. As I did he tried desperately to break it down sentence by sentence. My husband, the Bible genius, was asking me to explain what it was I saw in that chapter. I told him in every way I knew how. The next week, I had been home again and returned to his side for a four day period. He had asked me for a particular page -a-day calendar for Christmas that I got for him and he asked me to read it for him. I took it out of the box, and on the cover was the following:
God knows how to multiply your influence, multiply your strength, multiply your talent, and your income. All you have to do is believe. If you will release your faith for a supernatural year-get up each day expecting God's far and beyond favor, then you will see God show up and do amazing things in your life.
"Now all the glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask of Him. Glory to Him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen" Ephesians 3:20
Yes. I laughed.
This past Sunday was our first Sunday in church together in almost three months due to his health issues. I was on call for work so I had to watch from the outside atrium in case I received a call. It was an amazing message. And then...the following scripture reference was made...Ephesians 3:20.
Yes. I laughed.
I know God has got this. As He has everything. What I do know is that my sole purpose in life is to serve my God, to blog, tweet, post, pray, speak to masses, write and whatever else I can do to tell everyone I can how to get to the place that God wants them to be. God wants so much for your life. Don't waste another second. He is always at work within us.